If I erase this line within seconds, that could be the 30th time approx that I am erasing the starting line for this post. I had a crust in my mind, which I thought of putting out in words, I found a decent heading too. But I wasn't able to find out the correct sentence to start with. Me, a person, an entity in this universe, by now has survived 23 human years approximately. Lets look that in a different way, why everyone says time is a important part of your life? Many say, time is precious, dont waste it, as you cant get it back. According to me, Yes time is precious, but its not because that when you waste it,- you cant get it back. Buts thats the up most level of nature that you can partially control. Wait a minute, what do you mean by partial control ? Hmm, lets put it this way, you cant reverse time, but you can make your life do things that overspeeds time, so in that way you compensate your life by controlling time rather than time controlling you. Now lets go beyond that, all those philosophers, scientists in the past arrived at a conclusion that time is literally more important than gold. But there is something more golden than time. Thats what we call as CHANGE. Hey, this is not the small pennies or paisa you get back from the corner retail shops. The phenomenon, which governs every living and non living being. Here there can be a confusion. Assume your mom, is boiling a cup of milk After placing the milk vessel on the heating element, she comes to your room to help you clean it. But half way thru the cleaning part, she shouts at you saying, Hey, its more than 3-4 mts after I left the milk on the coil. And she drops the things in her hand, and run towards the kitchen to switch off the coil. So here is the common misconception, just because that its more than 4 mts, the milk would have boiled, or just because a cup of milk at so and so temperature would boil out at approx 4 mts that you call that specified period of time as 4 mts. Yes, yes I can hear some one shouting there. "Whats happened to this guy, I guess he has gone crazy, better send him off some where"
The whole world, the whole universe is a substance that entitles itself to change. Its that change that makes us sit up. If there has been no change in the earth movement you wont have a day and night. If the concept of change is devoided, the concept of aging will be thrown to trash. Its because that there always occurs a change that you try to monitor it, analyse it and take effective precautions to avoid it if its going to harm you in some way. But the concept of change many times, sorry most of the times cannot be controlled. How much ever, facial cream does this women of 2004 era tries applying on her face, she can only cheat the mirror but not herself.
So, where am I going from here, its simple, just because we cant control change, we try to encapsulate the next entity and thats time. So we all try to pull back the time, which again man failed to do till now. So, what we do, try to know the velocity of time, I mean both speed and direction. After knowing it we try overspeeding it in some way. And thats where man is again losing to time. those who acknowledge it address time as Mr. Gold.
Ok, I can hear some "shutups" there. I understand. And I can also see some funny faces in front of me, and there is a guy, hey, he is asking me some question. yea I gotcha. Here is the question which he asked me. "Ok Mr. Philosopher, enough of you bullshitting about time and change, what the hell does that have to do with your mysterious colleagues"
You know what, Now I understand, I have started the whole write up in a very wrong way. This is what you guys call, touching your nose by going around the head. Something made me sit and look at changes what my life has undergone in the past 23 years. forget the structural and physical change. For each and every human being, whatever be their age, whatever be their structure, at that particular time their mind will always say to them that you look good than before. This tendency pursues in evereyone's mind for most of their first 30 years after which you slowly lose interest in it. May be we try fighting CHANGE in the first 30 years, then TIME in the next 30 years. And at last we lose both the contest and start speaking things like "destiny" and "fate".
Down the lane, in this 23 years, I can list many happy events and a small number of bad events. But avoiding such external events, I the person, Looked at myself over the past 23 years at different stages. The term mysetrious colleagues, it can be addressed in 2 different forms. After each and every year of growth, I shed my skin and grew a new one, but thats not similar to throwing out a old dress and buying a new one for your birthday. Even though I shed my old skin and grew a completely new one, the characteristics of old skin remains in my new skin and grows over it. So when I look down over my other ages, I see them as mysetrious. So, what about the other way to look, after each and every year of my growth, i could feel some more human beings, some more personalities growing along with me with its own stark differences. The more I grow, the more they grow too. And they are again highly mysterious.
But introspecting myself. have I grown as a better person, past each year of this structural growth ? On some issues I could say yes and some issues I couldnt write anything but NO and underline it. Regarding specific activities, in a very early age, I recognized myself as a hardworker,I could reognize my memory skills. And all thru this 23 years I tried atleast growing both of them in some way. And on the path, I picked up various thinsg like drawing and painting some nonsense, reading craps, and now before a year discovered my art of writing craps too. But some of these activities which I tried to grow on me, had invidually achieved tremendous influence over me. Like this memory, and may be even reading and writing. One of the important issue that man should take into consideration is to move forward from the past. Any bad events, any irritation with one of your near by person, happens in everyone's life. Assuming if a mistake is done, and the mistake is on my side, If I need to move forward, i should at first take, forget it and in the same way, if some irritation happens and if the mistake is on any other person , If I need to move forward in that relationship I need to forget it. But with brain thats totally flooded with memory cells, the act of forgetting seems quite impossible.
And thats where relationship fails. But thanks to my memory loss in the recent months that I am moving forward in some way which is far better than before. And similarly reading in many ways has lot of influence over me as over any other person. Back in school days, many science fictions helped a lot in my creativity. But in the same way as science fictions did to my creativity, any books related to love/affection didnt influence me at all. The very act of inertness, that resides in my mind, makes my mind feels highly awkward to console a person who is emotionally affected, whether that be my father, mother sister or my friend. Why such tendency exists in me is a question which I tried answering manytimes but failed to do so. May be because, the act of reaching out can only be done by a person who as experienced it in some way not by a person who experienced inertness on all sides.
When I look down the past years, each and every time at my other age mysetrious colleagues, In over all I feel that I have grown in a better way, but in some ways I feel that i should have added something in my previous age, which could have grown on me by now. Thats where time is golden, as it cant be driven backwards. But change always occurs based on whatever inputs it get, without any pre conditions, and it doesnt even warn you of the consequences. I guess even Mr. Change is more inert like me.
Posted at 04:11 am by Clueless
