Hmm...Dumbstruck..Its been a while, since I did a personal blog...not because I didnt have anything to say. Not because I didnt have time...its because I donno how to put things in a more distilled flavor instead of pouring out the convoluted thoughts thats flooding the brains. Ok, Now by writing this post, I am in no way asserting that, this blog is going to be crystal clear..if its going to be clear, if its going to be understandabale in the first read, if it doesnt have any intended sarcascism, if it doesnt have an inner meaning...then it doesnt have my flavor. In simple words, that writing will not reflect me. The field of emotions play a larger part in man's life. This is what this post is about.
Some months back, when I was having an argument with some known person around here, I went dumbstruck..on hearing his way of putting things in place. In simple science, he said.."emotions weaken man..and me a man who want to be the survival of the fittest as per Darwin's theory, should reduce my weaklings..and the simple way to do is..throw away emotions." May be you can digest this words..but for a person like me, who play with emotions for every second..these words literally slapped one answer on my face...that I am the weakest. Am I?..I am not sure..Coz I don have a proof at this point of time..but the fact is I am confident of earning a better life..and be the survivor without throwing out emotions. More or less as time goes, when our surrounding remains more or less static, we tend to feel that we as a person also remain static, in the sense our emotions, our opinions or our behaviour also remains static. But in my case I am damn sure its not. Each and every act, each and every word in my surrounding sits on my mind for months, tinkers my mind to the maximum it can do. So does it weakens me..??
I donno how many of you, have this habit, but me as a person always try to plan a lot. Planning in the sense its not about you jus planning a trip, sometimes, I literally plan to say a lot of things to som other, many times I can hear myself saying things which I intend to share with others, I rehearse it, I make it clear. But then when the moment comes, it just vanishes. Its like the Lord of the Tongues, jus rolls up the red carpet ( read it as Tongue) down to my throat, so that no word comes out. So does that mean me the person doesnt have control over this Lord ? I amnt sure. your question is "whats the point here". Simple, I am dubbed the most secretive person alive. You might have heard dialogues that you like a person, or say you love a person or say you hate a person or in extreme case you jus loath that person to the most. But I donno how many of you would have heard saying that you like and hate the same person at the same time. May be you should hear my mind saying that. Man, I donno what type of factory or computer program that my mind is running, its jus keeps on spitting dead ends, monologues, vaccuum and more than that gets crashed often due to some emotive bugs. So does that mean I am weakened?
Let me share some more confusions here. A person can be impulsive, A person can be pragmatic, A person can be patient, A person can inert or a person can be ruthless to the next person...with respect to any sort of ill remarks. But what if a person, receives everything in his mind..and doesnt react at that point of time..(doesnt not mean that he is inert), but builds his views, opinions, irritations on it and spurts it out during situations with no relevance. Its like you trying be patient, you trying to control your emotions..but at som point of time..it builds on you and dashes the flood gates and involuntarily throws up. The question here is does this kind of emotional act weakens the person? Of course it weakens the person. A LOT.
Whatever i said earlier, are some kinda emotional play which weakens me and my ability in my surrounding at that instant. But that doesnt mean that me, in order to be the survivor, can throw up the emotions or resist their act. It simple devoids us from being who we are. I am clueless about the immediate solution, But I am sure that the answer of one of the person, I revealed in the start is not the correct solution. But I am confident the answer lies within this flooded zone. Some plugs and some deccelerators fitted in the right place would do the necessary corrections..
End of the mystic zone.
Posted at 05:24 am by Clueless
